I have written and deleted plenty of posts lately. Even published and deleted one that was too personal, even for me, to put on the blog. One Wednesday I finally realized that a general feeling of ungood lately was something bigger than just exhaustion or overwhelm.
After years of trying to cultivate a positive outlook, a glass half full, and an ability to find the silver lining, I lost that habit. I started looking at, focusing on, dwelling on the themes of alone, lonely, and single. The extra travel the last few months magnified that nobody waits for me at airports and nobody is waiting for me at home.
I have had some very bright moments in the last few months, but